i am a mother begging my child to take 30 minutes and watch tv. go ahead. judge judge away. today i have sat barely, not done my hair, not napped, cleaned the house too many times to have it all land up looking like junk moments later and i've reheated my cup of coffee 3 times. i repeat. i have reheated my cup of coffee 3 times. it just keeps happening. that sweet sweet coffee that most often helps my eyes to stay open and my thoughts to stay in a somewhat stream has been reheated and tastes like death. and i my friend am drinking this coffee in hopes that no matter what it tastes like it'll work like it usually does. there was a day i was so picky about my wine and coffee. today if it's hot or comes from a bottle i'm willing to take a chance. and if it's doesn't taste great but i seem to be achieving the same effect...i keep on drinking. this people is the real motherhood.
dear moms who look like they have it all together i know your secret. don't worry i am on my way to the store with two kids in tow to pick up that YSL under eye concealer. No we're not sleeping but we can find a way or two to hide it. dear child please have a nap so i can shower, please watch Mickey Mouse so I can drink the coffee without you attacking me and then me spilling it on both of us resulting in oh so much more laundry.
it's become pretty hard these days to some how make "me time". yup i'm selfish. i need time for me and i need it stat! moving to a new place with family nearish but all busy with their lives and working full time, not knowing any babysitters yet or new friends who i can pawn my kids off on and a husband working 12hrs a day 21 days straight doesn't leave a lot of "me time" opportunities. by the time the possibility of "me time" rolls around i am so exhausted and it's late so i slump into bed and there i stay until someone cries...which doesn't seem to take very long these days.
most jobs have a start time, break time, lunch time, coffee time & time to go home. sure you may mentally take your work home with you but if you don't have the chance to leave work at all, thats when things start to get a little scarry. those moments when you're beyond frustrated and you catch yourself or lets be honest you don't see how badly you're handling something until a bit later. i have had too many of those moments lately. my vision is blurry and my reactions are far to quick and slow. momma needs a breather. all that being said i do have small moments in the day i need to take less for granted. that and i need a keurig and to start promising myself and the coffee to not reheat it so many times. it's just not right.
so i'm on the count down. two more days until the hubs is home for a week. excellent. i WILL be taking quite a bit of "me time" in there...so help me god.
xo KK
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