1. Take a cooking class
2. Read The Chronicles of Narnia
3. Take out my sewing machine and at least learn how to set the tension
4. Go to Airdrie to see my PS
5. Get more sleep
6. Shower more
7. Get better at asking for help
8. Sing to my kids more
9. Listen more
10. Let go of a few people I've been working on letting go of for awhile
11. Take my vitamins
12. Try a new wine a month
13. Plan my vegas bday
14. Do at least 10 things I've pinned on Pinterest
15. Breathe more
16. Actually make it through Jillian Micheals 30 Day Shred
17. Be more concious of how I speak to my children
18. Get my husband 'fixed'. You know. Momma is done ever being pregnant again
19. Write letters
20. Try new foods
21. Do a cleanse
22. Be done breastfeeding
24. Take better care of my feet
25. Talk to my dad on the phone more
26. Have a date with my grandma
27. Be more consistant in friendships
28. Show my husband I love him more
29. Worry less about what people think of me
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Monday, August 13, 2012
babes & success!
ok so here's the thing about potty training. basically as soon as your child can walk people are already asking "so is he/she potty trained yet?" i don't know why but somehow as a mother it feels like the biggest defeat to answer no. in all the times i was asked i knew W wasn't ready yet, but still hearing that question never made it easier. it's like "oh so your child wont eat fruits or vegetables?" i know i know. i'm reading way to much into it. but really here i am entrusted with this humanbeing and he's still wearing a diaper? he wont eat fruits, veggies or even meat much? he throws fits and bangs his head on anything in sight? lol. oh yes, as a mom i'm trying a swear. haha.
anyways i wanted to post some positives here. while we were away on our crazy whirlwind 6 days in BC i crossed paths with a lady who runs a daycare and basically gave me a 'how to potty train'. it was bizarre to say the least. we were strangers and within 2 minutes were talking about essentially doing that potty dance. ha. i was inspired. here i was camping and BLAMO! here was my how to on potty training. so it's day 6 and we're batting about a 70% toilet to 30% accidents. i'm pretty excited about that! i'm proud of my little man. I know that we will continue to have to work on this for a long time and most days it will take patience i need to find but we are getting somewhere! i'm so proud of him. looking back i know we started at the perfect time. we were both ready so we started.
also the child will now eat hamburgers, hotdogs, chicken and an assortment of fruits and vegetables as long as there's dip! i'll take it! No scurvey or rickets for us ;)
LITTLE RED:
ok so as some of you have read we thought MacKenzie was lactose intolerant and it turns out she is. as much as this is totally uncharted territory for us i'm really happy to know that this is what was happening and that we can work towards finding milk replacements / substitutes that she loves. Ah i love when things start making sense.
now on to the sleep. so i don't know what it was about being away but when we came home as exhausted and out of routine we were i decided this was a fresh start. time for this babe to sleep through the night. time to not get up every 2-4hrs for a feed. she's 10 months old (WHAT??? she's already 10 months old?) and she can do this. so for the last 5 days i've been letting her cry it out. after awhile i go in and cuddle her a bit and she'll go right back to sleep without a feed. it's so good. there was even a night she slept right through till 6! yes i am a proud momma. so it's been either 1 wake up or sleeping anywhere till 5:30-7am. ah it is delicious!
oh and i forgot to mention that wyatt now thinks it's a great idea to sleep in until 6:45/7!
of course there are hard moments and hard days but reflecting on the amazing things happening is so good.
anyways i wanted to post some positives here. while we were away on our crazy whirlwind 6 days in BC i crossed paths with a lady who runs a daycare and basically gave me a 'how to potty train'. it was bizarre to say the least. we were strangers and within 2 minutes were talking about essentially doing that potty dance. ha. i was inspired. here i was camping and BLAMO! here was my how to on potty training. so it's day 6 and we're batting about a 70% toilet to 30% accidents. i'm pretty excited about that! i'm proud of my little man. I know that we will continue to have to work on this for a long time and most days it will take patience i need to find but we are getting somewhere! i'm so proud of him. looking back i know we started at the perfect time. we were both ready so we started.
also the child will now eat hamburgers, hotdogs, chicken and an assortment of fruits and vegetables as long as there's dip! i'll take it! No scurvey or rickets for us ;)
LITTLE RED:
ok so as some of you have read we thought MacKenzie was lactose intolerant and it turns out she is. as much as this is totally uncharted territory for us i'm really happy to know that this is what was happening and that we can work towards finding milk replacements / substitutes that she loves. Ah i love when things start making sense.
now on to the sleep. so i don't know what it was about being away but when we came home as exhausted and out of routine we were i decided this was a fresh start. time for this babe to sleep through the night. time to not get up every 2-4hrs for a feed. she's 10 months old (WHAT??? she's already 10 months old?) and she can do this. so for the last 5 days i've been letting her cry it out. after awhile i go in and cuddle her a bit and she'll go right back to sleep without a feed. it's so good. there was even a night she slept right through till 6! yes i am a proud momma. so it's been either 1 wake up or sleeping anywhere till 5:30-7am. ah it is delicious!
oh and i forgot to mention that wyatt now thinks it's a great idea to sleep in until 6:45/7!
of course there are hard moments and hard days but reflecting on the amazing things happening is so good.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
2 year old tyrants (no one tells you about the toddler years)
so i don't know where we turned this corner or what happened, but somehow i have a 2 year old tyrant running my household and it's bringing out the worst in me. there is screaming, headbanging, fit throwing, crying and just plain loosing your mind at ever corner. don't get me wrong. of course i love my little man and he can be sweet, smart, creative, caring and so much fun. but there is definitley a whole lot of dr.jekyll & mr. hyde these days. it's 0-100 in 2 seconds. there's no reasoning, no rationalizing, no major clue as to what went wrong. the tantrums can go on for hours and i'm not gonna lie it pushes a momma over the edge, across the bridge and down the lane.
ah just take a step back
count to 10
take deep breaths
well guess what this way harder than labor. i mean sure people tell you that there will be sleepless nights and picky eaters, teething etc etc. but this is a whole new level.
so people out there contemplating on having a child don't forget how ugly the toddler stage can be too. it wont last forever but right now 5 minutes is long enough. i dream of a day where we can balance things out a bit, step away from being pushed over the edge and down the lane. this is by far the most challenged i've ever been. he got his stubborness and impatience from me. i'm staring the toddler unrationalized version of me in the face on a daily basis and man oh man.
here's hoping no one looses it in the next 5 minutes
ah just take a step back
count to 10
take deep breaths
well guess what this way harder than labor. i mean sure people tell you that there will be sleepless nights and picky eaters, teething etc etc. but this is a whole new level.
so people out there contemplating on having a child don't forget how ugly the toddler stage can be too. it wont last forever but right now 5 minutes is long enough. i dream of a day where we can balance things out a bit, step away from being pushed over the edge and down the lane. this is by far the most challenged i've ever been. he got his stubborness and impatience from me. i'm staring the toddler unrationalized version of me in the face on a daily basis and man oh man.
here's hoping no one looses it in the next 5 minutes
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
sleepless on 21st ave
clearly the worst/best form of torture is being sleep deprived. oh and it could be listening to really bad music as well. or the nightmare where you think you've shown up somewhere naked and you really have and you can't leave you're stuck there with everyone you've admired, crushed on, been friends or enemies with and you don't have any clothes on.
in our house when it comes to teething babies and sleep it's like going to a greyhound race. there you are running along and that bunny is dangling right in front of your face pretty much making you crazy. so far we haven't been the chosen ones where teething is "no big deal" for our kids or all of a sudden surprise there's a tooth. nope not us. so this is how bed time goes....i'm running along chasing that bunny. i almost catch it AKA fall asleep and it's pulled away. so really the crying begins. or the rabbit is in my mouth. i get the slightest taste of the sweet sweet sleep. you know that just settling in falling asleep thing. yup and then ripped away from me. W wasn't a great sleeper till just before he was 1. basically when he was running around everywhere all day long...then he would crash. it's seems as though his little sister is following in the same footsteps. don't get me wrong they do have their better days. ANYWAYS. thanks to top tooth #2 it's been too many nights in a row of that sweet sleep being ripped away from me. I cannot survive day after day of 2-3hrs of sleep a night. the basics are breaking down. you know. the talking, walking & making sense etc.
on the same note right now they are being amazing. they both ate all their breakfast in record times, they're playing together, watching the backyardigans and no one is crying or screaming.
so off quickly i will go to make a cup of coffee and enjoy this moment before anything changes.
xoxo KK
in our house when it comes to teething babies and sleep it's like going to a greyhound race. there you are running along and that bunny is dangling right in front of your face pretty much making you crazy. so far we haven't been the chosen ones where teething is "no big deal" for our kids or all of a sudden surprise there's a tooth. nope not us. so this is how bed time goes....i'm running along chasing that bunny. i almost catch it AKA fall asleep and it's pulled away. so really the crying begins. or the rabbit is in my mouth. i get the slightest taste of the sweet sweet sleep. you know that just settling in falling asleep thing. yup and then ripped away from me. W wasn't a great sleeper till just before he was 1. basically when he was running around everywhere all day long...then he would crash. it's seems as though his little sister is following in the same footsteps. don't get me wrong they do have their better days. ANYWAYS. thanks to top tooth #2 it's been too many nights in a row of that sweet sleep being ripped away from me. I cannot survive day after day of 2-3hrs of sleep a night. the basics are breaking down. you know. the talking, walking & making sense etc.
on the same note right now they are being amazing. they both ate all their breakfast in record times, they're playing together, watching the backyardigans and no one is crying or screaming.
so off quickly i will go to make a cup of coffee and enjoy this moment before anything changes.
xoxo KK
Thursday, June 14, 2012
What my dreams are made of:
-Peeing alone
-8hrs of straight uninterrupted sleep
-Eating something I cook while it's still warm
-Eating sitting down
-Days without floating pollen
-A cooking fairy
-A laundry fairy
-A house cleaning fairy
-A grocery shopping fairy
-A manicurist on hand since my polish lasts a day
-A skinnier body double
-A mute button
Well a girl can dream
-8hrs of straight uninterrupted sleep
-Eating something I cook while it's still warm
-Eating sitting down
-Days without floating pollen
-A cooking fairy
-A laundry fairy
-A house cleaning fairy
-A grocery shopping fairy
-A manicurist on hand since my polish lasts a day
-A skinnier body double
-A mute button
Well a girl can dream
Monday, May 21, 2012
Remembering to shop my closet...the battle of KK vs. Shorts con't.
It's that time of year again...you know the one where you need to start baring those crazy white legs to the world. And as we can't walk around naked what the heck are we gonna put on them. Having kids changes ones style massively. I mean there's no excuse for the endless days of sweats but there is a time when you need to pull it together a bit.
As summer approaches I've been in a straight up anxiety attack trying to find clothes I like & that fit me. The body does a lot of changing. Almost 30 and two kids...time to work on a few things. I'll save that for another day. Anywho! If I can at all cost I will avoid trying to shop for pants/shorts etc. today after shopping and successfully finding a few new tank tops, a couple of shorter summer dresses and an awesome Maxi dress I was happy bit still had lost a part of the war. No shorts. So after everyone FINALLY fell asleep for a nap it clicked that I had a bag of old summer clothes in the basement. OH YES! 4 pairs of shorts that fit amazingly & a bunch more tops. All in all highly successful!
As summer approaches I've been in a straight up anxiety attack trying to find clothes I like & that fit me. The body does a lot of changing. Almost 30 and two kids...time to work on a few things. I'll save that for another day. Anywho! If I can at all cost I will avoid trying to shop for pants/shorts etc. today after shopping and successfully finding a few new tank tops, a couple of shorter summer dresses and an awesome Maxi dress I was happy bit still had lost a part of the war. No shorts. So after everyone FINALLY fell asleep for a nap it clicked that I had a bag of old summer clothes in the basement. OH YES! 4 pairs of shorts that fit amazingly & a bunch more tops. All in all highly successful!
Monday, May 14, 2012
oh man. i don't even know how to change a diaper
ok so i've started writting 4 different times this morning and they've all turned out to be complain-fests so i'm choosing not to publish any of them. sure there will always be crap hitting the fan in one form or another but in those times where seriously all i can do is think of the things we're lacking or what's gone wrong in the day, it's time to push myself to change my thinking. there is so much good. i can't let it just all pass by and not be noticed because of the few pieces of crap that has hit the fan.
growing up i was the girl that never wanted to babysit. i took the babysitting course because my mom said it would be a good idea and really when you're 12 you just do whatever your parents make you do. haha. so after the babysitting course i avoided babysitting like the plague. but we went to a church at the time and of course there were families with kids that needed a babysitter. i would always avoid all child related situations. i didn't want really any reason to have to hang out with little kids. one day a couple asked my mom (not me) if i could babysit for them and of course because my mom thought it was a good idea there i landed up babysitting. see well that right there. those two kids who were pretty well behaved and easy to entertain and get along with sealed the deal. i did not want to have kids. that was it. cut and dry. plain and simple. when i was at bible college there was a missions trip we could choose to go on for a month after school was out. i chose India. i love to travel and india was somewhere i always have wanted to and still want to go to. India got cancelled and my destination was changed to Hungary. the objective of the trip was to primarily work with children. OY! let me say it again for you, OY! so there i was. i loved those kids and somehow on that trip was a kid magnet. Still no wanting of the offspring. nope not me. getting married my husband knew i didn't want to have kids. i said sure who knows maybe one day but really i don't want them and don't think it's for me. i mean there are those people that just have that 'i'm a mom gene'. i didn't find myself to be one of those people. so we got married and there weren't any offspring plans. i was really lucky in making these choices and feeling this way about not wanting to be a mom that no one bugged me about it. no one was pressuring asking when the time would come or saying how nice it would be to have grand-babies etc etc. pretty much they let me be. it was about just before being married for a year a light switch went on in me. i wanted to have kids. two exactly. no more and no less and i would like to be done having them before i turned 30. there it was plain and simple. still no huge desire to be a mom or any clue how to do anything with babies/children (when wyatt was born i didn't know how to change a diaper and phil had to teach me how). after having a miscarriage May 2009 we found out we were pregnant with Wyatt July 1 2009 & we found out MacKenzie was on her way Jan 4 2011. Here we are, two kids and I'm 29. every day motherhood scares the shit out of me but it is beyond my greatest joy. it is the toughest and the most rewarding i've ever been a part of. i pray they take the best of me and leave the rest behind. i pray they know they are loved and that they are capable of accomplishing everything they want to. my life is totally different than i ever thought it would be and i wouldn't change a thing. nope not a thing. thanks for choosing me as your mama my little monkeys.
xo KK
growing up i was the girl that never wanted to babysit. i took the babysitting course because my mom said it would be a good idea and really when you're 12 you just do whatever your parents make you do. haha. so after the babysitting course i avoided babysitting like the plague. but we went to a church at the time and of course there were families with kids that needed a babysitter. i would always avoid all child related situations. i didn't want really any reason to have to hang out with little kids. one day a couple asked my mom (not me) if i could babysit for them and of course because my mom thought it was a good idea there i landed up babysitting. see well that right there. those two kids who were pretty well behaved and easy to entertain and get along with sealed the deal. i did not want to have kids. that was it. cut and dry. plain and simple. when i was at bible college there was a missions trip we could choose to go on for a month after school was out. i chose India. i love to travel and india was somewhere i always have wanted to and still want to go to. India got cancelled and my destination was changed to Hungary. the objective of the trip was to primarily work with children. OY! let me say it again for you, OY! so there i was. i loved those kids and somehow on that trip was a kid magnet. Still no wanting of the offspring. nope not me. getting married my husband knew i didn't want to have kids. i said sure who knows maybe one day but really i don't want them and don't think it's for me. i mean there are those people that just have that 'i'm a mom gene'. i didn't find myself to be one of those people. so we got married and there weren't any offspring plans. i was really lucky in making these choices and feeling this way about not wanting to be a mom that no one bugged me about it. no one was pressuring asking when the time would come or saying how nice it would be to have grand-babies etc etc. pretty much they let me be. it was about just before being married for a year a light switch went on in me. i wanted to have kids. two exactly. no more and no less and i would like to be done having them before i turned 30. there it was plain and simple. still no huge desire to be a mom or any clue how to do anything with babies/children (when wyatt was born i didn't know how to change a diaper and phil had to teach me how). after having a miscarriage May 2009 we found out we were pregnant with Wyatt July 1 2009 & we found out MacKenzie was on her way Jan 4 2011. Here we are, two kids and I'm 29. every day motherhood scares the shit out of me but it is beyond my greatest joy. it is the toughest and the most rewarding i've ever been a part of. i pray they take the best of me and leave the rest behind. i pray they know they are loved and that they are capable of accomplishing everything they want to. my life is totally different than i ever thought it would be and i wouldn't change a thing. nope not a thing. thanks for choosing me as your mama my little monkeys.
xo KK
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